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Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 12:29 pm
Are you joking??? I hate it. It's like I want to get rid of him but my subconscious is holding on to him so strongly. It's rediculous. I want him to be just my past but I know that's only a coverup because I feel defeated and don't want to admit that I do want him in my future. I guess I just did though...
ugh. And yes he's a loser for standing me up, and yes he's an idiot, and yes he's slightly (or more) a manwhore, and yes I can't get over him because those things just seem so little to turn of an emotion completely. Do I make any sense?
And I juts found out that I'm not actually moving this summer like everyone thought I was so I'm going to have to deal with him for part of next year too, so maybe it's like my second chance at it. not being hopefull too much though. But I am ready to tell him. It just has to be in person.
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 12:47 pm
Yea it is never fun. And guys that do that are not worth anytime. They just end up hurting you. I had that problem with the subconcious. We finally had to sit down and talk about it.
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 12:51 pm
Conzoni al Vento: So what is your status with him?
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 1:43 pm
YAY! You get to hang out with her! Have fun; and don't run out of stamina.
He never called back? Not cool.
Well, you need to tell him that he can call whenever he gets the chance, because I'm sure you don't care what time it is. Ahh well, hope you get to talk to him soon!
Okay, good luck!
Okay... so, stop lying to yourself. You still have major feelings for Lu. You dream about him. You think about him. You can't let him go. That tells me that maybe you aught to give him one more shot. Do like you said and tell him how you feel in person. See how he responds. I mean, you might as well; what have you got to lose? But if you don't get to see him for a while, try not to stress out about him. But, like I said, you can't keep lying to yourself. He's a manwhore, you know this, you accept it; so give him (and yourself) another chance.
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 1:55 pm
I think that I will have a nice time.
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 4:08 pm
I read through the pages from when I was gone and all things seem to be taken care of. I'll jump in if I have something.
Camp was freakin' awesome. That's putting it lightly. I cannot even begin to explain the awesomeness. [If you would like in-depth accounts, PM me].
I don't even know where to start with boy stories except for one name: Marcas. Whoa. I thought I was over blonde guys, I really did. That came crashing down on Monday . . . I can't exactly tell the entire story of him in one post, I honestly can't. But a quick overview: He runs track and is pretty tall. BUT WAIT, he just texted me. No lie, just this second. Sorry . . . But yeah, we just had a really nice week. It wasn't a lot of intense conversation or anything; mostly strange/Jim Halpert glances and semi-insulting sarcasm. It was all meant in goodness.
Since it was the last night we always sing the theme and medley of camp. You get in a circle with your company and wrap arms around each other and sway. At first I was by my friend Johanna while Marcas was next to her, but in between the theme of camp, we switched places. But yeah, we wrapped arms and sang and it was awesome. That's what I'll give you guys for now.
A word for the wise: Chatting was pretty good but there were some spurts . . . Oh, and I leave again on Tuesday camping.
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 6:53 pm
Good news I only have a few minutes...i kind of got the computer taken away but I convinced my mom to let me post real quick...so me and a bunch of friends are going to the fair. At first it was going to be a girls night thing, but I couldn't go because me and Mike had a date. But then they all said that Mike should come and now all the guys are coming too. Wow like 15 people are going!!! Im so excited...its going to be a blast. Oh and I'm bring my friend Kevin along that isn't really part of my group, but my friend Rachel likes him so I'm setting them up. Mike wasn't thrilled because Kevin is only my friend out of all the people that are going but I had to basically sell my soul to get Kevin to come so I'm ignoring him. I will probably have to devote most of the night to Kevin but hopefully Kevin and Rachel will hit it off and I can focus on Mike. Well gotta go my moms yelling at me.
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 9:13 pm
Hey everyone I will be gone from (07/13/08 ) to (07/29/08 ).
Me and Elke had a very nice date today. We had a nice time, we went to the pond, and held hands and then we watched a movie. We had a nice time, but I will miss her very much over my trip.
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 10:41 pm
Status??? I don't even think I've ever thought about that.
Anywho. We are friends. Nothing too special. Nothing more But i guess more than the average person he just "talks" to. I guess to change that we need to do something outside of school.
Have fun on your trip.
You get major props for pointing out EXACTLY what the situation needs and exactly what is going on. and yes... I am always willing to give him another shot beacuse he never did it with the intentions of letting me down. In school and everything I never treated him any different than anyone else so he may not have thought anything of it. Infact I know he doesn't know I like him so why should i be mad at him?
Posted: Sat Jul 12, 2008 11:29 pm
ok i need some help.
i am still trying to figure out when i should txt D next.
i txt him.. i think tuesday night? and talked to him for a min. but he was at soccer camp..
so when do you think i should txt him again?
and i dont want to txt him too soon.. because i dont want it to seem like i am bugging him...